Gama beba / Gamma Baby

! This post was written long ago. What you're reading is not necessarily how I feel about things in 2017. This blog was started by an 18-year-old in 2001. Please, keep that in mind before you freak out.

This is really brutal. I started writing it early in April when I was super-angry and then I felt ashamed that I wrote something as evil as that. Eventually, the mythological half of it will be kept for something from Wrong Star, as it's too good to be right here, right now.

As of the moment when the second half of 2011 started sprouting - I don't care. In fact, I decided to combine this poem with a couple of others on the same subject and make a mini-series. I might even PDF them.

Despite the grotesque violence that I'm about to demonstrate to the readers here, I'm not violent myself. I'm just like Pilates - washing my hands off the whole thing. Ha.

Gama beba

Prazna ljuštura, ona što kaska unazad,
veštački čovek, unutra nema ničega,
maska od laži i unapred snimljenog ponosa,
usisao si je,
njeno celo biće je raslo unutar tebe,
da popuni bele zidove tvog enterijera,
da popuni tvoju baksuznu prazninu,
da popuni tvoj prazni krvotok.
DEMONU!

Bilo je lako prerezati joj grlo,
bilo je lako polomiti joj kičmu,
bilo je lako ubediti je da je svaki njen korak
ustvari hodanje po minskim poljima.

To je njena krivica, je l' da?
Ona greši, a sa tobom je baš, baš sve u redu?
Jesu li ti zato oči tako staklene?
Je l' ti je zato pljuvačka Domestos?
Je l' ti je zato glas kao govornom automatu?
Zato što je u vezi s tobom sve sjajno, beksprekorno i kako treba?
O, da! Da! Naravno!

Ti si toliko stariji,
ti si toliko pametniji,
ti si toliko načitan,
ti si video toliko sveta...

...ili samo vidiš sebe u svima ostalima?
Ups, prozrela sam te!

Šta si to rekao?
Molim te, šta si to upravo rekao?
Heh, then. Then it would be late.
NOW, NOW, NOW, NOW, N-O-W!

[I onda se ona blesavi na tvoj veliki dan.
HA HA HA.
...sa pravim ljudima,
kojima prava krv,
u pravim krvnim sudovima,
teče kroz pravi krvotok.
Čak ni ne želi da zabije bodež u hidraulički surogatni sistem koji menja tvoj.
Došlo bi do kratkog spoja,
a struja ostavlja trajne posledice na zdravlje.
Zabodi ga sam. Treba!]

Ona upravlja parnom lokomotivom koju si porekao!
Ona upravlja parnom lokomotivom, propalice nijedna!
Rekoh lokomotivom, gama bebo, REKOH LOKOMOTIVOM!

Ona upravlja parnom lokomotivom, pregaziće te!
Ona upravlja parnom lokomotivom, bićeš muvoserina!
Rekoh parnom, gama bebo, REKOH PARNOM!

Svi tramvaji koje si video će te udariti,
polomiće ti zube da se više nikad ne nasmešiš,
ti i ovako i onako ne umeš da se smešiš,
šta će ti 32 izgovora za ljudskost u ustima?

Sve oči koje si sreo će te mrzeti,
učiniće da se osećaš loše, da shvatiš ko si,
ti i ovako i onako ni ne znaš ko si,
šta će ti ko zna koja provera za prisustvo duše?

Podvukla sam liniju,
_______________________________.

Podvukla sam još jednu liniju,
_______________________________.

Podvukla sam mnogo linija, sve vode do jedne te iste subote,
ti si oho-ho ispod nje, ti si oho-ho posle nje.
I ti si tako gama,
šta bi ti rekla mama?

________________________________________________________

Gamma Baby

An empty shell, the one moving backwards,
Bionic human with nothing inside,
Mask of lies and pre-recorded pride
You sucked her up
Her everything was growing inside you
To fill your blank interiors,
To fill your miserable emptiness.
To fill your empty bloodstream.
DEMON.

It was easy to cut her throat,
It was easy to break her spine,
It was easy to make each single step of hers.
Seem like walking on a landmine.

Because it's HER fault, right?
It's her who's wrong and everything's absolutely fine with you?
That's why your eyes are so like glass?
That's why your spit is like Domestos?
Is that why your voice is like a speech
Because everything's so right, perfect, flawless about you?
Oh, yes! Yes! Sure!

You're so much older,
You're so much wiser,
You've read the books,
You've seen the world...

...or you're just seeing yourself in everyone else.
Whoops, I just saw through you!

What did you say?
Please, what did you just say?
Kakvi onda. To je mnogo kasno.
ODMAH, ODMAH, ODMAH, ODMAH, O-D-M-A-H!

[She's fooling around on your big day.
HA HA HA.
...With actual people,
Who have actual blood,
In actual vessels,
Running through an actual bloodstream.
She doesn't even want to stab your hydraulic surrogate system that's replacing yours.
It'd cause short circuit,
and electricity leaves long-lasting consequences on health.
Stab it yourself. You should!]

She's riding a steam engine, that you denied.
She's riding a steam engine, you punk.
I said engine, gamma baby, I SAID ENGINE!

She's riding a steam engine, she's step over you.
She's riding a steam engine, amd you'll soon be a stain.
I said steam, gamma baby, I SAID STEAM!

All the trams you've seen will hit you.
And break your teeth, so you'll never smile,
You don't know how to smile, either way,
Why would you need 32 excuses for humanity in your mouth?

All the eyes you've seen will hate you.
And bring you down, so you see who you are,
You don't know who you are, either way,
I said

I drew a line,
____________________________________,
I drew another line,
____________________________________,
I drew so many lines leading to the same Saturday,
You're so below it, you're so after it.
And you're so gamma.
Go back to your mamma.

One Reaction to Gama beba / Gamma Baby

  1. Marouk says...

    outch - below the waistline
    just the way he acts, it's just justice!

     
     

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